This year kinda sucked.
You can work hard, you can go to church every Sunday, you can check all those items off the daily to-do list and still somehow the stars don’t always align and things don’t quite go as planned.
There can be days, weeks, even months when I feel like I haven’t accomplished much and I’m letting people down. Most of the time it just feels like I’m “in a funk” but occasionally it manifests as full-blown depression and anxiety.
Relatives pass away. Financial trouble comes out of nowhere. Relationships become more challenging than uplifting. Friends don’t answer their phones when you need them. Animosity and resentment builds.
And by the way, this is not some veiled way of “calling out” someone who I think did me wrong. I have not been my best self this year, and I’m ready to make some changes.
No matter what’s going on in your personal life, you still have to get out of bed in the morning, put one foot in front of the other and walk through those difficult times, asking for guidance every step of the way. Some days we feel like we’ve nailed it. Some days we just feel tired and discouraged. It’s OK, though, because we’ve got tomorrow to make it better. And there’s so, so much to be grateful for.
I once told a friend that I love Mondays because it’s a chance to start fresh. I suppose the same could be said for every day of the week, but I like to think that if I get things right on a Monday, maybe the momentum will carry over for the rest of the week.
I struggled this year. I’ve got some areas in which I can improve. I’m ready for a new beginning.
The year 2018 delivered some sucker punches. You know how you have those periods of time when you wish you could just hit the reset button? Game over; let’s start a new game.
It even extended to my friends. I have people in my life who are struggling and I don’t know how to help them. I don’t know how to be a good friend. I feel like most days I complain more than I look for the silver lining. I’ve got lots of great things in my life and I want to show gratitude rather than letting the devil bring me down.
I’m pledging that in 2019 I will try harder to be a good person. I will take care of my body and my mind. I will gather the tools that I need to handle difficult situations so I don’t just completely fall apart and drag others into the wreckage. I will speak less and listen more. I will pick my battles, and they should be few.
I will write thank-you notes. I will return the grocery cart to its proper location rather than taking up an entire parking space. I will dust off the yoga mat and take some deep breaths in prayer and meditation.
I’m ready for a comeback, and I think 2019 is going to be my year.
April Towery is the managing editor of The Sealy News. She can be reached at 979-885-3562 or via email at firstname.lastname@example.org.